It's Only Family

Wow!!! Best intentions got thrown by the wayside, but I am going back to pick them up, dust them off, and reinstate them!! I simply cannot believe how fast time flies…
I have a lot to write to catch up, so it looks like I will not elaborate too much on each topic, and break it up into different posts. The first one I believe I need to catch up on was a real blow to my heart. I have had family issues as far back as I can remember, but this one takes the cake. A couple of weeks after Mother’s day, I received an envelope in the mail with no return address. When I opened it up, there inside was the unopened Mother’s day card that I had sent to my German mom up in RI. She had written “return to sender” on the envelope, but apparently the postman missed it the first time and delivered it to her a second time. To insure that it did not happen again, she put it inside another envelope and sent it on its way. A bit of trouble to go through to make a point, and I wish somehow that I knew what her point was. I have no idea what I did to deserve such an action, and my many phone calls went unanswered. The little girl inside who has only ever cried out for their love has been once again crushed. I have experienced the whole spectrum of emotion, and am at a place currently where I just have to lay my heart out before the One whose love is secure in my life. He can handle it all…the sadness, the anger, the bitterness, the injustice, the pain…He only asks that I give it to Him first, and this I am trying my best to accomplish.
I have an older sis who also lives in RI…same town actually, and they have not spoken in four years (so maybe it is not me?). This sister will be getting married in September, and if all goes as planned, I count on dropping by Mom’s place to see if I can at the very least get some kind of explanation for her unfounded action. Some people would encourage me to let it go…just write her off…but actually, I feel like confronting her would be a step of growth for this lifelong stuffer.