Sunday, October 24, 2010

My Experiment in Solitude

Wow!! Almost two years to the day since my last entry...either my life has been dull, or so full that I have not taken the time to write ;)

I have returned now to record some thoughts and reflections as I begin a three week adventure into an intentional embracing of solitude. Not a hermit type of solitude as I will not be cutting myself off from the world. (obviously, since I will still be online)

I am catsitting for a friend who is visiting her family in Bejing. My residence for these few weeks will be a one bedroom apartment with no phone and no television. My bed will be a mattress on the floor, and in the living room a pew style cushioned bench with no back and a rectangular card table...from the first night that I came to meet the cats, I knew this was a divine appointment.

Margaret Becker wrote a song years ago called "Find Me" and this song is playing through my mind as I begin this journey:

"I'm gonna give away my stereo
give away my tv
I'm going back to essentials
a chair and a lamp
and the Book that you wrote to me...
you see I'm looking for the You that used to speak so clear
I'm looking for the me that had a heart to hear
and I'm looking for the passion that held me here...on the edge
find me....find me...I'll wait for you...
You see I'm looking for the me that I used to know...
looking for the love that was out of control cuz i...feel a little cold here in the afterglow...
find me...find me...I'll wait for you..."

I am sure you can find it on Youtube if you are interested in hearing it.

So I won't spend a lot of time writing tonight, I really just wanted to create the picture of the beginning...and I am very much looking forward to spending this time seeking...
listening...
learning...
engaging...
with the Creator of the universe...
who is mindful...

of ME...